Tuesday, November 8, 2016

1// i had to get a new laptop because i'm a sack of shit and spilled water all over my last one, rendering it useless. thereby also taking my free photoshop with it. i also would have hopped out of my car in drive and with both parents inside it if it weren't for simon yelling WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING. and rightly so. the worst was when i applied my sheet mask before i even cleansed!

2// tim van de weerd

3// daphne groeneveld

4// ciara is so. fucking. good. it moves me.

5// mark your calendars! nov 14 will display the largest supermoon in 70 years!

6// finished paula deen's it ain't all about the cookin'.

so, what i got from this is that paula deen is a racist. not the kind that's deliberately out to be malicious because she seems like an overall sweet person, but the real ignorant, don't know no better kind.

for example, wanting to name one of her dishes as the sambo burger. not because she hates black people, but because she had no idea the word even existed, let alone it's implications as a racial term. she named it because it was her twist on a beau burger inspired by a biker named sam, hence sambo. you know, a somewhat ehhhhhh understandable "harmless" ignorance.

other quotes her editors failed to cut:

- i never went to chef school
- sometimes i would be told to stay with a real nice black woman who often babysat trina and me. i remember this one day she had brought her little girl to work, and that child had many big, fat blisters on her hand, probably from helping out her momma. something about those blisters just attracted me and i remember hitting those little hands with a bolo bat, and it busted er blisters good. it was pretty satisfying... but her mother-- i can't remember if she slapped e across the face or she spanked me, or both... and my granddaddy had the woman arrested for hitting me. the little black girl's momma went to jail
- i just spread my legs, and i peed on the floor.
- furthermore, i knew, even then, you didn't need an education to be successful.
- i started sweating like mike tyson at a spelling bee.
- [her grandmother] showed me this lump right there on her chest. it was like a goose egg... we called her chiropractor, dr. mcdaniel, who came to the house immediately to check it out; he thought it was nothin' -- turned out to be cancer
- i wasn't born with a silver spoon in any of my orifices.
- my children and i had been having such a hard time with our relationship because i was such a slave driver
- night after night, we'd lay up in that bed and talk and listen to his music, then my music, and sometimes, sure, we'd play hide the sausage.
- there are spitters and there are swallowers, i'm a swallower.
- i sure knew from my own experience that to be a poor little black girl growing up in the south in the fifties was a tremendous challenge. 
- still, there's one word i do not use in a curse. i never say gd. i try to never take my lord's name in vain unless like i stump a tow or somethin'
- you lick each other's gravy fingers; you squeeze the tender peach, then feed it to each other; yo get the taste of the key lime pie he just sampled... that warm, yellow butter just slipping that lobster down his throat -- imagine it.

7// studio eo's indefinite vases

8// gucci hairband so gaudy, i love it.

Monday, October 31, 2016

- hologram furniture.



- william lloyd garrison.

  • early supporter of women's rights and equality. published articles written by women. when women were denied seating at the world anti slavery convention in london, garrison and three others refused their seats to sit with the women in the spectator's gallery.
  • served as frederick douglass' mentor and father-figure.
  • advocated dis-unionism. believed the constitution was complicit with slavery and suggested that it be torn up and rewritten, and until then, avoid all participation with it, even voting.
  • found, edited and published the liberator every week for 35 years.
  • went to jail for "slandering" a slave ship captain. and was damn proud of it.
from the first issue of the liberator:
I am aware that many object to the severity of my language; but is there not cause for severity? I will be as harsh as truth, and as uncompromising as justice. On this subject, I do not wish to think, or speak, or write, with moderation. No! No! Tell a man whose house is on fire to give a moderate alarm; tell him to moderately rescue his wife from the hands of the ravisher; tell the mother to gradually extricate her babe from the fire into which it has fallen;—but urge me not to use moderation in a cause like the present. I am in earnest—I will not equivocate—I will not excuse—I will not retreat a single inch—and I will be heard. The apathy of the people is enough to make every statue leap from its pedestal, and to hasten the resurrection of the dead.

 - walking down hollywood blvd and i see two girls walk out of the hustler store. as they walk by the window display, one says to the other, "where was this outfit in the store? if you had this, you'd so get chosen" to which the other girl replies "totally, i would so win if i had that outfit"

- watch full episodes of king of the hill here.

- BRAXE. i found my new favorite etsy store which is a GOLDMINE of beautiful, beautiful sequin clothing. ALL funeral-friendly, whether it's yours or not.

- MUSE: adriana la cerva

- these shoes make me so uncomfortable.


Wednesday, June 29, 2016

- hoping i can maintain a blog during my unemployment to prevent boredom and hold me accountable for it. also hoping it'll somehow spark some creativity that will lead to a new hobby. anyway. it's been almost four months since my unemployment and i'm bored with it. primarily because i really haven't taken advantage of it beyond sleeping in and being able to avoid the peak hours at the gym.

- today, i found my bsb millennium cd in simon's glove compartment. when i tried to pop it in, simon wouldn't let me and said that i need to either take out it with me or that he will throw it away. he said he neither likes them nor dislikes them but would just prefer not to have it in his car. even though his stereo can accommodate up to six cds at a time and currently three of them are occupied by my celine dion best of, britney spears' britney and a mix of drake songs. when he found out i saw bsb two years ago, and that i had paid for the tickets, he called me a stupid woman. and now i am blasting bsb at home, so you take that you stupid man.

- cole sprouse. cole sprouse. cole sprouse. cole sprouse. cole sprouse. cole sprouse. cole sprouse. cole sprouse.

- darner velvet socks.

- my love of rose scents is strange to me bc it goes against my brute exterior. it's like seeing a female body builder with acrylic french tips.

Monday, March 14, 2016

you meet someone you were meant to have met and everything makes sense and all that you find is tender, is what you feel is meant for the two of you and it feels selfish but it's okay bc it's beautiful and you know that's what life is supposed to be.

and then you hear a burger king commercial and you laugh because you know that was meant for you too.

yo la tengo - on our way to fall
bob - not for long
beach house - myth

Friday, January 22, 2016